behind-crimson-eyes

ROCK. ROBOT ROCK.

32 Watchers24 Deviations

14.8K

Pageviews

Latest Deviations

See all

Terrible Angels by behind-crimson-eyes, literature

Literature

Terrible Angels

And then you were gone. Just like that, you walked out of my life. And i suppose i should be greatful. But you left me broken and alone. I am still broken and alone, but now i have something new hate. and sweetheart, it's all for you oh how i hate you and what you stand for and i wont forget you darling and i'll warn every girl you meant to beware of you and your smooth talking because beneath it all you're just a scared lost little boy caught up in his own selfish desires and as for the next girl that discovers this, well she'll be my friend because we'll share the common mistake of ever loving you. i'm not a bitter exgi

Silence by behind-crimson-eyes, literature

Confessions Aged 10 to present by behind-crimson-eyes, literature

See All

Featured Gallery

See all

Daddy by behind-crimson-eyes, literature

Literature

Daddy

I watched her. I knew her. I loved her. I stared down at my hands again. How could I do this to her? She's just a young girl. I turned over on my side and curled into a ball under the blankets. The crisp sheets crinkled as I wrapped them around my body. It was a cold wintery night, yet I had chosen summer pyjamas to wear. I fell into a restless sleep. She stood in the mirror. Looking at herself. He'd done it again. She couldn't understand what she did to make her daddy so mad. She picked up the tissue and continued to dab at her eye, even now the bruise was clearly visible. She prayed it would be gone by the end of the week. Sh

Die Young and Save Yourself by behind-crimson-eyes, literature

Literature

Die Young and Save Yourself

I walk down this street. It's familiar. I have can't remember what memories it brings back. But I have been here once before, once in a past lifetime, suppressed under years of denial. I see a body, once beautiful, now broken and bruised, and then there's me. Crouched in the corner, shaking, hiding under layers of clothing that hang from my body like limp leaves from a tree. An attempt to hide away from it all. I am twelve. I hit puberty. I notice girls, I notice they have bodies. But I also notice the boys. I notice their haphazard way, their happiness. Year 6, last year of primary school, last year at top of the hierarchy before

Fi's Story by behind-crimson-eyes, literature

Literature

Fi's Story

The music pumps from Fi's room, blaring out into an otherwise quiet suburban street. Her parents bang on her door, screaming at her to unlock it, to turn the music down. She ignores them; they can go fuck themselves for what they've put her through. How dare they try to tell her what to do, how can they have any weight in her decisions after this? How can her mum take back her dad after he had an affair with her cousin? How can they love her yet put her through this? She turns the music up even louder and picks up the razor. "It's been a long time" she murmurs to the razor. As the track changes, she hears a different voice at her door

Watchers 32

See all

LonelyInTheCrowd

Monique17

sodeum0mg

Spiritlobo

shadowed-angel

cryingpain

pantera-fans

SugarPirate

crimsondemise

DrunkenDolphin

StarsxMustxDie

TotallyRejected

Watching 21

See all

Broken-By-Havok

diversify

shadowed-angel

StarsxMustxDie

cweeks

TheSlitWrists

pantera-fans

divisionst

D-Me

suzi9mm

kris-wilson

angelsdiary

MadMonk7

vestrit

player133

Collection

Favourites

See all

5. Seeking Solace by shadowed-angel, literature

Literature

5. Seeking Solace

Yeah, I scrubbed myself so hard that day. I watched the drain swallow my blood like a metallic vampire. It was one of those times when you just can't get clean no matter how many layers of skin fall away. I went to the doctor, to learn the answers. They gave me pills and sent me on my way. They wanted to forget that I was human, you see. I downed those pills with a shot of vodka and thought poetic thoughts over the sounds of trance playing in the background. I thought I was asleep for a while, the paintings were dancing to the art

10. Breathe Again by shadowed-angel, literature

Literature

10. Breathe Again

I breathed today. It wasn't for the first time, but it felt real. I could see so much further within and without. It was beautiful. I watched a weed grow into a rose. I watched a god fall from his throne. I felt Justice was done. Final. Never the end. Just the beginning of a very long journey to the center of something new. I sprouted wings, only to have them ripped off, sewed back on, and torn again. Somewhere around Tuesday, I realised, I never needed wings anyway.

About behind-crimson-eyes

See all

Australia
Deviant for 19 years
www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=576455292
She / Her

Badges

My Bio

Current Residence: Melbourne

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

nick cave and the bad seeds

Posts

See all

behind-crimson-eyes

Nov 16, 2009

Devious Journal Entry

0 min read

i haven't been on here in 3 months, yet it feels like i've done nothing in that time.  well i have this last week, i graduated from uni, its my 21st birthday tomorrow and i get my full license tomorrow, but apart from this last week, i haven't done anything but fuck myself around in the last three months.  i get myself into situations that i hate with guys, i don't understand them, i can't understand them and i lose friends because guys are just fucked.  i don't think i'm ready for uni next year, this year was hard enough to make attendance and its only arts.  law will be completely different.  i just wanna run away and be 14/15 again where n

Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In

behind-crimson-eyes

Aug 17, 2009

yay!

0 min read

so i got into law.  i'm absolutely stoked.  i didn't think i'd get in, there's only 60 places and i got one!! although, i do somehow have to come up with 85 grand cos it is full fee but that's just a minute detail!!!

Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In

behind-crimson-eyes

Jul 23, 2009

oh hey there

0 min read

so i'm determined to organise my life.  everythings been sliding pretty rapidly out of control, no i'd say my life is completely out of control.  so i'm taking action! so i decided to organise everything in my room, redecorate and shit, i finally organised youth allowance so i can quit all my jobs bar one and actually focus on uni for once.  i organised my money and my tax and everything, i feel so organised haha!  health wise, i'm still pretty shitty, not sleeping heaps which doesn't help my gangi but oh well, i'm still getting shit done.  i just feel like i'm caring too much about things i can't control and letting things i can control get